Looking for Jesus never ends. I think that as long as I spend time with him and watch how he approached life, I will see him. Not in spectacular ways, I would guess, but in the everydayness of being a neighbor, making decisions about how I spend my time, teaching my children what is important, listening to a friend, letting my connection with Jesus control my heart, my words, and my actions.
Jesus said once, “The kingdom of God is within you.” Not that he needs my approval, but I think he’s right. He changes our insides, not our outsides. Life goes on, and it can be hard, but he’s the best friend a person could have, and I won’t give that up.
When he was here, he often said things that turned people off. Mostly he was opposed to being selfish and using others to make yourself look important. He didn’t like phoniness. He talked about how having a connection to God was the most essential thing in life, and that a person’s spirit was more important than material things or circumstances.
Those are hard words to hear because they mean that the world doesn’t revolve around me. I think everybody wishes sometimes that it did. I know I do. Anyway, a lot of people heard his words, left him, and never returned. One time he asked his closest friends: “Are you going away too?” and one of them replied, “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life.”
And so he does.
As for me, I’m with them. I’m not going anywhere. I’m here to stay.